Sunday, September 25, 2016

Radical Obedience - September 25, 2016

Mark 9:7 - Then a cloud formed, overshadowing them, and a voice came out of the cloud, " This is My beloved Son, listen to Him!"

Barefoot running is the most radical thing I have ever done in my life on a consistent basis. What started as a "fun" thing to do has turned into something much more. It has become a point of obedience from the Lord. To be honest, I might not be doing what I am doing with BF running if it weren't for the Lord taking over this ministry. The past few years I have been content to just run and not make a big deal out of it. However, He keeps wanting to throw me into situations where I have the opportunity to be obedient to Him. Several years ago, I ran in an event with several thousand people in attendance. As the race wove through neighborhoods, there I was busily handing out flyers and information on the Free Wheelchair Mission. People were surprised and shocked when I would run into their front yards and hand them a piece of literature. To be truthful, I felt somewhat embarrassed both during and after the race for doing so, but I knew that it was a point of obedience for me.

The word "radical" has its origins from the Middle Ages. Derived from the word rādīcālis it literally means "having roots". The implication of "radical obedience" means a type of obedience that is rooted in the very fundamentals of obedience to God's holy commands. For truly as the root IS, so IS the tree. (No where is this stated clearer than John the Baptist's admonition regarding the axe being laid to the root [Matthew 3:10]). In the same way that a tree "having roots" is descriptive of radical obedience, adversely the roots can be just as radical toward toward selfishness and disobedience resulting in the displeasure and judgment of the Father.

Radical obedience does not come without both a price and a reward. The price is most people not understanding what you are up to and judging you accordingly. The reward is a transfiguration only the Lord can cause. This is sanctification, pure and simple. In the Old Testament, prophets were often told to do seemingly absurd things such as walk barefoot and naked (Isaiah 20), wear an oxen yoke around their necks (Jeremiah 27), or marry a harlot knowing that she would be unfaithful (Hosea 1) just to name a few. God is noticeably silent regarding the prophets and their obedience. There is a stark lack of commentary from the Lord regarding their following the Lord's commands. No where in the Old Testament have I found where God says to the prophets "Good job for being obedient and looking like a fool so I could get my point across". Radical obedience seldom has God's demonstrative commentary attached. However, we do find certain other notables in the Old Testament that don't lack God's testimony of favor. These are men that walked with God and gained His favor through obedience that spanned their lifetimes, not necessarily just through a time of prophetic calling. Abraham believed God and it was reckoned to him as righteousness" (Genesis 15:6). Moses was the friend of God and the most humble man on earth (Numbers 12:3). David was a man after God's own heart (I Samuel 16:7). These were men who knew the Lord through faith and righteousness through years of walking with Him in radical obedience.

To the degree that we know the Lord through faith and righteousness, will be the degree that we are walking in obedience to His word. Just because we are working out our salvation through obeying His promptings and through His written word, this does not necessarily mean that we are always going to be receiving an "Atta boy or girl" from the Lord. The instances of the audible voice of God commending His Son in the New Testament scriptures are very few. Probably, the greatest commentary to radical obedience was given on the Mount of Transfiguration when God the Father said "This is my beloved Son, listen to Him!" Not only do we hear the Father stating that Jesus was the perfect embodiment of Himself by his proclamation of His love for Him (for He saw no sin in His Son, but a life being lived in purity), but we hear the commandment of the Father to LISTEN TO HIM! This is the Divine Testimony that the Father concurred that Jesus His Son was LIVING a radically obedient life and that ALL should heed what He says. In the Father's summation, it could not be any better or purer!

While we may never hear the audible voice of God, we will surely experience His peace and His still, small voice as we turn toward Him in all instances of our respective lives. Those of us who have served the Lord for a while know how easy it is to grieve His Spirit away and feel absent of His presence. However, when we begin to turn back to the Lord with an attitude of extravagant or radical obedience, then we begin to sense the Lord rejoicing in us and over us.

Prayer: Lord Jesus, Thank you for your wonderful example of obedience. May we learn the secret of abiding in your love and life that we would truly be pleasing to the Father in all things. In Christ's name, Amen.

Your Barefoot Servant,

Barefoot Rick

Sunday, September 18, 2016

Perseverance Through Love - September 18, 2016

Romans 5:3-5 - And not only this, but we also exult in our tribulations, knowing that tribulation brings about perseverance; and perseverance, proven character; and proven character, hope; and hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out within our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us.

Most of us have never experienced what the apostle Paul speaks of in this scripture. God has not put many of us in situations where we are literally suffering for the sake of Christ as the Roman Christians suffered. Even today, most that are able to read this devotional are in countries that allow and actually celebrate freedom of belief and religion. However, there are many who don't have computers let alone electricity who are in violent, Christ-hating regions where their very testimony is an act of extraordinary faith. Nonetheless, God meets us where we are and gives to us the measure that we need in our present circumstances. These in distant countries exult in their tribulations, knowing they bring about proven character. Circumspectly, those of us who do not know or understand true Godly tribulation may still understand with measure what it means to persevere through our day to day trials. God has us all exactly where we are to be at this exact moment. Therefore, we must take every opportunity the Lord gives us to practice the instances of character building the Lord brings our way.

Before knowing the Lord Jesus, I ran away from and quit everything of significance that I ever started in life. I quit high school to join the Navy. I quit the Navy to be out on my own and to go to college. Quitting college after one semester, I quit innumerable jobs and relationships for many years until I came to the end of myself and I just couldn't run away from life anymore. I was physically, mentally, and spiritually bankrupt. Once I re-committed my life to the Lord, I began to understand the importance of finishing what I had started. Enrolling and attending college, I gained more and more confidence as the semesters began piling up with high marks. The perseverance that I learned in college in my late 30s and early 40s were things most learned as youths and teenagers. Nonetheless, those were the days when I "grew up" and started acting like a man. The disciplines that I learned in those first few years of sobriety and re-commitment to the Lord carried over when I took up running once again in 1998. Sure, I had trained and ran a marathon a few years earlier. However, this was different than when I started running 8 years earlier. This was a commitment to a lifestyle -- a "life hobby" as my brother so appropriately called it.

Self-imposed tribulation as I experienced is never the ideal way to learn one's lessons and to "grow up". However, self-imposed discipline is CHOSEN and embraced to develop various physical as well as mental and spiritual attributes. I bore up under the pain through my own failings before Christ, and now I am continually learning how to deal with pain through disciplines that lead to success after success. Rather than look at our tribulations or trials as a catalyst to develop perseverance and ultimately proven character, hope, and love, we too often look at these perceived hindrances as nuisances and bothers. "Well, I'm just a little annoyed today" one might say with disdain and a gloomy countenance. Or, one might conversely say "I have the opportunity to be shaped more like my Lord through this ordeal". Perspective is the key. When running up hills during marathons I love shouting out "Hills are our FRIENDS!" Other runners look at me like I'm nuts (usually those who are walking UP the hill), but some nod in approval. They know that hills really show what a runner is truly made of -- they are to be conquered and not acquiesced to.

Winning attitudes toward life's respective "hills" aren't automatic on our proverbial "race days". Nothing has taught me more about tenacity and perseverance than running on a daily basis -- some days trudging away when no one but myself and God are there to acknowledge it. This simple commitment is a constant reminder to me of the lost soul that I was for so many years -- how doing something consistently reconfirms to me the mercy of the Lord to bring me out of a life of dogged failure and disappointment. My former self-imposed life of tribulation created the willingness in me to do something different which ultimately began molding the "character" I am today. Metaphorically speaking, when we finally get tired of running away from God, we can begin to run toward Him and to embrace the obstacles along the way as those which will save us and not enslave us to hopelessness and despair. This is only possible as we trust in the Lord and rejoice when the hard times come. Most assuredly, they will because He loves us too much to leave us as we are and desires us to be perfected through perseverance in His love.

Your Barefoot Servant,


Sunday, September 11, 2016

It is Well With My Soul - September 11, 2016

Job 1:21b - ... The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away. Blessed be the name of the LORD.

A few years ago, a friend of mine wrote to me, describing an encounter he had with a man and his family. According to my friend, this man is angry with God because of seemingly unjust calamities that have plagued their household. Last year, they lost their four month old to SIDS, a negligent driver caused an accident that totaled their car, their house burned down and he recently broke his leg as a sub-contractor. He wants to know what else God wants from him. They're presently living in a motel. My friend and his wife listened and gave little advice. He said they felt like Job's friends with little ability to console. I wrote my friend back stating, "Yeah, what do you say to a guy who has gone through all that?". I told him that I would pray for the family, that they would ultimately understand God's love even when it seems that He has forgotten them.

Later in the day I was reflecting on this situation and I started humming and singing "It is Well With My Soul". I first thought, this is a curious thing to be singing this particular song while meditating on the woes of these unfortunate folks. Then, I remembered. It as if God allowed me to sing that song to be transported back to the time when I originally read the circumstances behind the writing of that powerful hymn. The following is from Wikipedia regarding the man behind the lyrics:

It Is Well with My Soul is a very influential hymn penned by hymnist Horatio Spafford and composed by Philip Bliss.

This hymn was written after several traumatic events in Spafford’s life. The first was the death of his only son in 1871, shortly followed by the great Chicago Fire which ruined him financially (he had been a successful lawyer). Then in 1873, he had planned to travel to Europe with his family on the S.S. Ville Du Havre, but sent the family ahead while he was delayed on business. While crossing the At­lan­tic, the ship sank rapidly after a collision with another ship, and all four of Spafford's daugh­ters died. His wife Anna survived and sent him the now famous telegram, "Saved alone." Shortly afterwards, as Spafford traveled to meet his grieving wife, he was inspired to write these words as his ship passed near where his daughters had died.

Many times misconceptions can form in the minds of those who do not know the Lord. Some churches have fostered the delusion that once a person accepts Christ into their lives, they will have continual prosperity and no harm will befall them. If it does, it is because they have allowed Satan to come and rob them. A simple rebuke of the evil one is all that it should take to get the blessings flowing once again, they would say. This is not the case, in most instances. True, God does give to those who give their lives to Him. However, there can be those times of misunderstanding and confusion when the Lord begins to move contrary to what we consider the "blessed life". Look at Job. The man Job was a righteous soul, yet God had allowed his family and life to be ruined for no apparent reason. Was God making sport of him? Was he creating some "grand game" in the heavenlies so that He could get His chuckles at Job's expense? God forbid! Instead, He was proving to all that Job was a man of character and integrity. In the end, he would be more prosperous and closer to God BECAUSE of the calamities.

So what do you tell someone who does not know God, or if they do, they are so wrapped up in anger that they can't see any purpose in their dire predicaments? Nothing. Unless you have lived through similar heartaches and disappointments, you don't have counsel that will comfort someone when they encounter supreme loss. The best to do is to listen thoughtfully. However, there is an exception. If one understands and feels the heart of the Father for that individual, then yes, words of consolation will be received. These are truly words of life that have been grown in the garden of the Father's heart and are full of compassion and love. Horatio Spafford understood. God gave the man and his wife more children and he went on to create a mission to the poor in Jerusalem because of the heart that the Father gifted him with after his traumatic ordeal. It is all about perception, my friends. We can take on the bitter heart of an isolated soul that is angry for God dealing us a bad hand in life. Conversely, there is an opportunity to take and embrace our losses and watch our Heavenly Father turn them into mighty gains. As the old adage suggests: We all have the opportunity to grow bitter or better. Can you say with the hymnist today ... It is well, with my soul?

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
when sorrows like sea billows roll;
whatever my lot, thou hast taught me to say,
It is well, it is well with my soul.
It is well with my soul, it is well, it is well with my soul.

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed his own blood for my soul.
It is well with my soul, it is well, it is well with my soul.

My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!
It is well with my soul, it is well, it is well with my soul.

And, Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.
It is well with my soul, it is well, it is well with my soul.

Your Barefoot Servant,


Sunday, September 4, 2016

The Mind of Christ - September 4, 2016

II Samuel 7:1-3 - Now it came about when the king lived in his house, and the LORD had given him rest on every side from all his enemies, that the king said to Nathan the prophet, "See now, I dwell in a house of cedar, but the ark of God dwells within tent curtains." Nathan said to the king, "Go, do all that is in your mind, for the LORD is with you."

This was no small thing that the Lord God of Israel said through Nathan the prophet to King David. It may seem to the carnal mind that the Lord was giving David a proverbial "blank check" to do whatever he so desired in building a house for the Almighty. However, before one enters into a sanctified life like David lived before the Lord, one must look at the context of II Samuel chapter seven and David's life leading up to this point. Verse one points out, first of all, that the Lord God had given David rest on EVERY SIDE from ALL his enemies. How can such a thing happen? Bottom line: The life of David to this point was a life of obedience that leaned heavily on the understanding of God and that not of himself.

The first book of Samuel is all about David coming to this point of radical obedience. In this book of the Bible, God raises David up from the lowly shepherd who first defeats Goliath, then later to a powerful warrior that leads an army on the cusp of ruling all Israel. Many instances are described where David would seek the Lord to determine if he should go up against a band of Philistines, Arameans, or Midianites. Often the Lord would say, "Go up, for I have given them into your hands." On other occasions, the Lord would speak to David in more specifics. II Samuel 5:23 states: When David inquired of the LORD, He said, "You shall not go directly up; circle around behind them and come at them in front of the balsam trees." David learned through constant conversation with the Most High how to understand Him and to follow Him to the utmost detail. Years and years of constant inquiry for the mind and knowledge of God had given David the "edge" over his enemies. Fortunately, David knew not to equivocate but to obey once he truly heard His voice. Before long, David's mind and the mind of the Lord became one. It is evident when Nathan the prophet prophesies to David that God was on the same proverbial page as the king and that he should do all that was in his mind regarding the house of the Lord.

In the New Testament, Paul writes about understanding being "one" with the mind of God. In I Corinthians chapter 2, the apostle testifies between the differences of the carnal and spiritual man and their respective reliance on either the flesh or God. Paul speaks in verse 14 that the revelations the Lord would speak to the mind and heart of a man are foolishness in the eyes of the world. In verse 15, he speaks regarding spiritual appraisal of the things spoken by the Lord and how only a spiritual or sanctified person can hear this wisdom. In verse 16, he goes on to quote Isaiah 40:13 stating: For who has known the mind of the Lord, that he will instruct Him? The rhetorical question does not require an answer. However, Paul does say something rather astounding in the closing remark of the verse: But we have the mind of Christ. Glory to God! Paul has just told us that we too can have the same intimate relationship with the thoughts of God that King David shared with the Almighty. He is saying that if we are in Christ and are walking in His Spirit and are being sanctified through obedience, then we too can know the mind of God and hear the voice of the Lord saying to us, "Do all that is in your mind, for I am with you."

Without a doubt, there will be times when those of us who believe in Jesus Christ will "feel" like we are not hearing the voice of the Lord. If we are giving our lives to Him daily and are walking in obedience, His voice will be heard once again in our minds and hearts. The assurance is ours through the death, burial, and resurrection of our Lord. Truly, He said that if we have accepted Him then we are seated with Him in heavenly places and that He has blessed us with every spiritual blessing, including the mind of Christ (Ephesians 1:3. Just keep on believing, knowing that He desires us to persevere through times when we don't "feel" like we are hearing Him, and simply believe and take steps in our obedience to Him. In due time, the veil will be lifted and we will hear once again with clarity to do all that is within our mind and heart because we are walking in the Spirit with Him.

Your Barefoot Servant,


Sunday, August 28, 2016

The King's Kindness - August 28, 2016

II Samuel 9:1-8 - Then David said, "Is there yet anyone left of the house of Saul, (that I may show him kindness for Jonathan's sake?" Now there was a servant of the house of Saul whose name was Ziba, and they called him to David; and the king said to him, "Are you (Ziba?" And he said, "I am your servant." The king said, "Is there not yet anyone of the house of Saul to whom I may show the kindness of God?" And Ziba said to the king, "There is still a son of Jonathan who is crippled in both feet." So the king said to him, "Where is he?" And Ziba said to the king, "Behold, he is in the house of Machir the son of Ammiel in Lo-debar." Then King David sent and brought him from the house of Machir the son of Ammiel, from Lo-debar. Mephibosheth, the son of Jonathan the son of Saul, came to David and fell on his face and prostrated himself. And David said, "Mephibosheth." And he said, "Here is your servant!" David said to him, "Do not fear, for I will surely show kindness to you for the sake of your father Jonathan, and will restore to you all the land of your grandfather Saul; and you shall eat at my table regularly." Again he prostrated himself and said, "What is your servant, that you should regard a dead dog like me?"

The story of Mephibosheth (pronounced Mah-fib-o-sheth) is a remarkable one. We are introduced to this son of Jonathan, grandson of Saul in II Samuel 4:4:

Now Jonathan, Saul's son, had a son crippled in his feet He was five years old when the report of Saul and Jonathan came from Jezreel, and his nurse took him up and fled. And it happened that in her hurry to flee, he fell and became lame. And his name was Mephibosheth.

This is the first mention, but as we read in the opening scripture, it is not the last. We can only assume that Mephibosheth probably led a life of privilege as the king's grandson until that fateful day. The lad was too young to realize the implications that were transpiring all around him. At five years old, it would be hard to grasp the idea that your father and grandfather were both dead, and the kingdom that you would one day rule was being given to another. One might conjecture that his father, Jonathan, had more than once told his young son of his valiant friend, David. However, on this day, a two-edged sword of fear undoubtedly struck the servants of Saul's household. One, that the Philistines might overrun the house of Saul and murder everybody within, or two, that David might do the same since it was evident that God was giving him the kingdom. As this fear seized Saul's servants, the nurse ran with the lad and he fell thereby causing the accident which made him a cripple for life.

Several years later, we find David inquiring whether anyone is left of his friend Jonathan's household, that he might show mercy toward? Most likely, when Mephibosheth was notified that King David wanted to see him he thought, "Now, he is going to kill me and be done with the house of Saul!" It was undoubtedly a tense and worrisome journey to Jerusalem to appear before the King. When Mephibosheth is brought in to David's presence, David immediately puts the young man at ease by telling him to fear not, that he desires to show him kindness for the sake of his father Jonathan. Then, Mephibosheth says something remarkable: What is your servant, that you should regard a dead dog like me? David goes on to comfort the young man and to restore to him the fortunes of his family, and to give him a seat at the king's table for the rest of his life.

This is a wonderful metaphor regarding the life of a sinner in the hands of a merciful God. In truth, Adam was our "nurse" that caused our "falling" into sin. Every man, woman, and child is a cripple without Jesus Christ, whether they know it or not. Many continue throughout life until death not knowing or caring that they are crippled by sin. They have no understanding that their heritage began long ago as sons and daughters of the Most High, but because of Original Sin and its consequences, they have been reduced to crippled paupers. I started this writing by stating this is a remarkable story. It is remarkable in that Mephibosheth is an archetype of those of us who have come to the end of ourselves -- who see that we are spiritually and morally bankrupt and are cripples that have no ability to walk in newness of life by our own accord. King David, the archetypal Christ, is portrayed as the one who extends mercy to one that has acknowledged their own unworthiness to receive anything of goodness from the hand of the King. Jesus Christ is the one who extends the scepter of life to us, as David did to Mephibosheth, restoring us to our rightful place as heirs of the Most High God.

It is quite easy to take for granted what the Lord Jesus did for us on the cross, transforming our lame spiritual legs with the ability to walk in newness of life. I have often meditated on this fact while out on one of runs. That God has given me the ability to run and enjoy the gift of my legs to carry me about is a wonderful thing. I have often related it to the wonderful gift of salvation how both are not to be taken for granted. Then, I think about the tens of millions throughout the world that are crippled and in need of a means of mobility other than dragging themselves through daily life. Just possibly, if they can experience the kindness and generosity of others through organizations like The Free Wheelchair Mission, then maybe they will see Jesus Christ in those who have made it possible for them to experience mobility for the first time in their lives. We too, like King David, have the ability to extend the "scepter of life" to the crippled throughout the world. It just takes caring enough to say, "Yes, I want to change someone's life forever by giving what I can to restore a life and to show the Living God through a simple act of kindness like giving."

Your Barefoot Servant,


Sunday, August 21, 2016

A Restful Return - August 21, 2016

Psalm 116:7 - Return to your rest, O my soul, For the LORD has dealt bountifully with you.

Occasionally, when out running I will step on something in just the right way and in just the right place that it sends a pang of pain through my entire body. Yes, even barefoot runners such as myself that have ran thousands of miles barefoot will still experience stepping on something from time to time that is ... well, unpleasant and painful. When I was just starting out in my barefoot running pilgrimage, it was of greater consequence stepping on a sharp rock because I dwelt on the pain longer and then tightened up with fear that I would land on another. Of course, when one is tense then the journey becomes more about getting it over with rather than enjoying the run. Bottom line: One cannot successfully run barefoot by tensing up every time one steps on something unpleasant. The outcome would result in being tied up like a bundle of nerves and tensed up beyond the point of relaxation, which after all, is what barefoot running should be about.

Oh what a joy to run carefree, when one does experience something unpleasant to forget about it as quick as it happens! This becomes easier and easier the longer I run barefoot. The same can be said regarding a maturing Christian and how he or she reacts to what life may throw their way. Even as I quiet the "sole" of my foot after a stone bruise by reminding myself to relax, in the same way we as believers should remind ourselves to constantly "Return to your rest, O my soul". Even if our body cries out in pain after stepping on something uncomfortable, it is natural to experience the pain but not to have to dwell on it. The key is to minimize the discomfort by dwelling on "the joy set before me" of running carefree. In the same way, God allows us to return to our place of rest, or our "center" which will always be the resting place of the Most High. Whether we call it resting in the Everlasting Arms, or being sheltered under the Wings of His Love, these are images of resting places that truly allow us to return to our center, the place of greatest attraction for the believer.

Let me explain further about the place of greatest attraction. The place of greatest attraction for anything on earth is the center of the earth. For, if you drop something it will always fall or be attracted to the earth's center by the law of gravity. In the same way, a believer is enveloped with the Love of Christ which enables them to return to the "center" of our spiritual existence, which is Christ is us, the hope of glory. We will always fall toward our "holy center" if we don't allow anything to impede us. Just as an outside force may interrupt the law of gravity by grabbing an object before it falls to earth, so we must be diligent not to allow an impedance to interrupt our return to our spiritual rest in the Beloved.

Jeanne Marie Bouvier de la Motte Guyon (or Madame Guyon for short) understood the importance of re-centering ones self in respect to her Maker. This 17th century Christian wrote the following in her book "A Short and Easy Method of Prayer".

As soon as anything is turned towards its centre, it is precipitated towards it with extreme rapidity, unless it be withheld by some invincible obstacle. A stone held in the hand is no sooner disengaged than by its own weight it falls to the earth as to its centre; so also water and fire, when unobstructed, flow incessantly towards their centre. Now, when the soul by its efforts to recollect itself, is brought into the influence of the central tendency, it falls gradually, without any other force than the weight of love, into its proper centre; and the more passive and tranquil it remains, and the freer from self-motion, the more rapidly it advances, because the energy of the central attractive virtue is unobstructed, and has full liberty for action.

Madame Guyon later acknowledges that distractions will come and go and that these are part of life. The difference is how we react to them. The quicker we can return to that place of rest and instinctively "fall" towards our center, the more we can enjoy that constant fellowship of the Divine Life that dwells within the spiritual core of each believer that has confessed Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior. As I stated, the imagery is individual whether one visualizes themselves falling into the arms of Jesus, or whether one sees themselves resting in the Mighty Wings of the Most High. The most important thing is to understand that we have that place of refuge that we can "fall" to when the struggles of life come upon us. Even as this barefoot runner must remind his "soles" to return to their rest after an unpleasant experience, so we MUST practice returning to our "center" and that glorious place of rest that He has promised to all who would but believe.

Your Barefoot Servant,


Sunday, August 14, 2016

Don't Hesitate - August 14, 2016

1 Kings 18:21 - Elijah came near to all the people and said, "How long will you hesitate between two opinions? If the LORD is God, follow Him; but if Baal, follow him." But the people did not answer him a word.

For whatever reason, those who begin running barefoot will often try to subsidize their running with shoes. I did this for a brief time when I first started barefoot running, but in time I realized that shoes or sandals or whatever I chose to run in besides my bare feet would only keep my feet from evolving and changing to adapt to constant barefoot running. Many might hesitate, not being sure of the outcome if they would totally give themselves to this "new" way of running. In other words, they have no clear idea or vision of the outcome. To hesitate often times means one is unsure and lacks true understanding of the end result. Sometimes, hesitation can be good in that it allows us to think clearly through a situation before blundering in to a bad decision. Often however, it is a character flaw that can be powered by fear of the unknown.

Hesitation is usually the direct result of a lack of vision, or if you like, the inability to see things beyond the present to their eventual conclusion. This is an accurate appraisal of the children of Israel as they stood before the prophet Elijah. They had lost the vision of who God truly was in their lives. They had a clouded understanding of who it was that had delivered their nation from calamity time and time again. In the same regard, If we truly understand who and what the Lord Jesus Christ is and how He sacrificed all so that we could have all, then we would either fall on our faces and worship Him for His great gift, or we would turn away and deliberately choose to live our own way. Even as in 900 B.C. Israel, it is true for us today -- we have the choice to worship the Almighty or any number of "Baals" or idols in our own lives. How does one get to this "clouded" perspective of who the true God is and what He has done and continues to do for us? The problem with most Christians is that we have never had a true vision of the Lord Jesus.. We accept the Lord into our hearts and thank God for the gift of salvation and then continue living our lives the way we see fit. We don't understand, as in the case of the woman who came to Jesus with the alabaster vial of perfume, how one could "waste" themselves on the Lord (Luke 7:37-47). Many would find it inconceivable to give up an hour of their day to read the Word of God, let alone an hour kneeling before the Lord in prayer, listening intently for His voice and His direction. No, these things are foreign to most believers because they have been wooed by the world and the many distractions that would seek to suck up their time.

When I came back to Christ in 1992 and put the "plug in the jug", I had exhausted myself between the opinion of the world and the opinion of God. I was beat to a pulp, knowing then that my running from God was futile and that I either needed to die to God and continue on my destructive course, or die to sin and destroy it once and for all in my life. It took years of backsliding to figure out that my life was rudderless and on a course of ultimate destruction. Until I had that vision of who I was, who the Lord is, and the life He desired me to live, then I was lost in my own interpretation of what I believed to be right. Once the epiphany came -- that truly I was a man that was undone and without hope outside of Jesus Christ then I realized that no longer could I halt or hesitate in my devotion to the One who saved my soul.

Today, it would be an act of betrayal and treason to the Most High to allow the world with all its seductions to woo me into a place of compromise. Double-mindedness, as created by a love for the world apart from Jesus Christ, causes a steady flow of distractions to eventually consume the worldly-minded believer. Believers that have watered down their faith with inordinate "loves" become paralyzed with indecision because their "decider" has been muffled or totally busted from misuse and neglect. It is once again time to get before the Lord and confess ...

My God, I have strayed and my resolve is unresolved because I have compromised my affections with the world. I have hesitated between worshipping You and the "idols" that distract and that I do so dearly love. But now, O Lord, I confess before you that my life is nothing without You. Therefore, take my life once again and fix my "decider" -- let me once again be strong in the Will of the Lord to fight the good fight of my Savior, Jesus Christ. In His Mighty Name, Amen.

Your Barefoot Servant,